I don’t know, maybe it’s just me, but ever since the day I said,” I do” to my husband and had my first child, it has been a journey filled with valleys and hills. I also find letting go of my selfishness to be hard work. Though the journey as been filled with unexpected twist and turns, I’ve seen God’s hand in each and every situation, as He has molded me into the person He wants me to be.
I guess behind every wife and mom we would find a nurturing, caring person who just wants to do the very best for her family; after all, who would want to bring destruction to the ones they love. I am reminded in scripture that we’re to pick up our cross daily and follow after Jesus. But what does this really mean in my everyday life? In my life it means: 1) Getting up out of bed early in the morning and reading my daily devotional, so I’m thoroughly equipped with the Armor of God, ready to face any battle that may come my way. 2) Guarding my mind every minute. There are so many distractions that can come in and steal my time, focus, energy, and just plain common sense. 3) Being the wife my husband needs me to be, or maybe I should say, let my man be the man he needs to be. God is doing a work in you ladies, but maybe He’s trying to do a work in your husband too, if only we would get out of the way. 4) Remembering my mission, my desire to train my children up in the Lord, while at the same time, living my life in such a way that it would draw others to Christ. Again I will mention, beware of things that want to steal your focus! The bible says, “Be sober; be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour” (1Peter 5:8).
Ok, here is the deal; all of this doesn’t come natural. In the beginning I mentioned I have a struggle with selfishness. The only way I can do this is to take the focus off of myself and place it on God. Nothing in this world was meant to fulfill us, except God himself, so let the husband, children and friends off the hook. As I’ve grown through the years, I’d say that at this very moment in life I really feel the freedom to be me the person God has created me to be, that freedom can only be found in Christ. That confidence gives me the power I need to tackle whatever may come my way in a given day. Even on those days where all I see is the eager, ambitious goals of my children, and my husband needing the respect that I need to give to him, even when I don’t “feel” like it. Just when I think I’m about to be circum by my circumstances, I feel the Spirit of God welling up inside of me telling me I can make it one more minute, one more day, one more year. All of a sudden, I’m way down the path of life. It’s has been a journey that’s for sure. I know without a doubt that in my own strength I could do nothing.
If you are struggling at this moment in time, Please know that God knows where you are in the midst of your circumstances. He sees the big picture. Take heart He is doing a great work. I’ll close with these verses. In Christ Alone.
Isaiah 43: 1-2 (N I V)
1 But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.
2 Corinthians 12: 9-10 (NIV)
9But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.