I usually write or post a poem for Mother’s Day; however, I didn’t get around to it this year. I was too busy being a mother instead (As a mom, I am sure you can relate). That said, one day I was sitting and having some quiet time and this memory popped into my head. It reminded me of God’s faithfulness and how He cares about the desires of our hearts.
If you have read my testimony, you know a little of how my journey began. I was aimlessly wondering around looking for something to fill the big void that I had in my soul.
I felt like a blind man.
I don’t know the exact date of this particular event, but I do remember the feeling that was overcoming me and I also remember it was Mother’s Day. I had just recently asked Jesus into my life. My journey was just beginning.
I was lonely and I felt unloved.
I had two children at the time. But, I felt like I had a hole in my heart. It was Mother’s Day for goodness sake and no one was making me feel like I was worth anything! My husband was not in the condition to lavish love on me because he couldn’t even love himself at the time. He didn’t know Christ, and I needed Christ’s love in a big way.
I set off for church that Mother’s Day morning with my head drooped low. When I got there, I saw something even more depressing. I saw perfect families. I saw happy moms who obviously had received gifts for Mother’s Day. (Funny, how our mind thinks this way).
During the service, there came a point when they were going to give bouquets of flowers to the oldest mother in the room, the youngest mother in the room, and mother with the most children. I stood there watching as each mom kept sitting down as her number passed. I found myself still standing. “Surely I couldn’t be the youngest mom in the room. I am 24,” I thought to myself. To my great surprise I was the youngest mom in the room.
God knew what I needed that day.
As I headed home that day, my head was held high. It wasn’t because my circumstances at home were going to be any different, but because something inside me had changed. God had showed up in a big way that day. I knew at that point He would never leave nor forsake me. He had me in His grip and He would not let go.
Did I mention the flowers were roses? (smile)
Dear sister, trust me when I say, “I know what deep loneliness feels like.” If you are going through a season of loneliness, please know God loves you very much, and He is near. He loved you so much that He sent His son to die for you. Look up and look around, because I know He is revealing to you just how much He does love you.
The Lord your God in your midst, the Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing. Zeph 3:17