Beginning my married life as a Marine’s wife, I had no problem with packing up my home and children and moving where the orders would take us. I was excited about the new adventure that awaited us.
Plus, it meant my house was guaranteed to be cleaned top to bottom every three years. Clutter was no problem. It was gone!
However, now that I was becoming more mature and sophisticated. I was finding more and more that I didn’t like letting go of stuff…. I am not talking about my overcrowded closet that needs purging, either. I am talking about wanting what God has for me but not wanting to let go of some of the good, even the things that aren’t so good.
It was easy to purge the stuff I didn’t want; the stuff that made me feel safe was a different story.
From childhood, I learned to build up walls that made me feel safe. It took me awhile to realize I had been hauling those walls and many other things around for years.
The Lord was telling me it was time to do some demolition. Those walls needed to come down.
Reasons I wanted to keep holding on:
It brought me comfort.
It is not easy to go outside the comfort zones that I had put in place
Could I really trust God?
I would be vulnerable.
It exposed to others that I didn’t know what I was doing. Yikes!
It turns out that those very walls that were keeping me safe were actually causing me to be in a bondage of fear.
And once those walls were down, the cleaning of the inside was in full force. The true work was able to begin.
I am continually being made into a new creation.
Ok, my sister, what are you holding on to? It might be a funky thought pattern that doesn’t line up with God’s word. It might be replacing the negative voices in your head with the solid truth. It might be dying to self, so the radiant fullness of Christ can be made alive in your life. It might be tearing down that wall.
Lord, help us!
As I begin to release that tight grip, it causes me to grow and trust little more and more. I am continuously put in a place where I have to trust God with everything I can’t see.
I am confident that He sees the big picture. And even though it might not be an easy road, the journey is still worth it. I’m where I am supposed to be.
“Being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ…” Phil. 1:6
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